Thank you all for your thoughts and comments. I am certain that your prayers and positive vibes have carried me the last month. I am feeling better and my Dr. appointment Saturday showed improvement. So Tuesday when I go back in I will inquire about running again! I know I will have to start out slow and work my way back to where I was but that is ok. I NEED to run, more now than ever.
On top of the medical issues I have been dealing with yesterday I dropped The Hubs off and he is headed to lands unknown (for his safety and the safety of those he works with I will just leave it as a military deployment). It is never easy when he leaves. If I wasn't in a cave the last month then I will definitely be in one for the next couple of weeks. It always takes time to get into the routine of being a married-but-single mom and dealing with nerves and anxiety. There are a few things that are just plain annoying during deployment.
To name a few annoying things:
Missing the phone call by literally 2 seconds, answering just to hear the click.
Carrying the cell phone with you to the bathroom so you DON'T miss it by 2 seconds again.
Feeling like you have a growth on your body and it is actually a cell phone.
Watching the news.
People who want to tell you about the news in the given location of your Hubs.
Wishing time to pass quickly when you know that it wont.
Feeling conflicted because by wishing for time to pass quickly you are also wishing your life away.
Thanks for letting me whine for a minute....
Now, about the running. Despite my current condition I just registered for the Mercer Island Half Marathon on 3/21 which so happens to be my BIRTHDAY!! What a great day for a race! I have never raced on my birthday before! I have no doubt I will be well enough by then to run, I may not be in good enough shape to get my sub 2 PR but hey, I have the whole year to do that!
Having an empty calendar is not a good way to start out a deployment so today I sat down to write some stuff in. In addition to the Mercer Island Half I have penciled in Mt. Si ultra relay in April! Yay! I LOVE LOVE LOVE relays!! This will be my third year participating in this race. I am still contemplating the Oklahoma City Memorial Marathon at the end of April. The past month has knocked my confidence in a full marathon, but if not the full then the half is a possibility. May brings a couple of local halves to chose from so I will decide later on that. Then we find ourselves in June. June brings the Rainier to Ruston ultra relay! Another of my favs!! Also, my sister and her friend may be heading here to do the Seattle Rock-n-Roll half! So if they come then naturally I will HAVE to do it too! This would be my first race with my sister!! How fun! She will most likely beat me. She has always been the runner of the fam and she is pretty naturally great at it. I just have to work too hard. But that is ok, I just think it is cool that we will be doing the same race! Then, folks, it will be July!!!! Not too much happens in July (insert sarcasm here), there are a handful of Tri's (which I will have to do at least one this summer) and a few local halves. And hopefully, Lord willing The Hubs will be home before our son's 5th birthday Aug 4th!!! Yay!
The only months I see dragging by are January and February. I will dedicate January to healing, getting better, and building my running base back up, and just getting out of bed every day (this includes leaving my cave). And Feb I've got nothing. I plan to head home to OK to visit the fam, since we had to cancel our trip over Christmas.
When I sum up the next 7 months like I just did above it doesn't seem so overwhelming!
With the new year comes changes. I welcome the changes and put 2009 behind me. 2009 has had it's challenges and has hopefully made me stronger. I have grown in many ways and pushed myself beyond my breaking point only to find I did not actually break. My motto for '09 was "that which does not kill me only makes me stronger". I am searching for my motto for 2010 and for some reason this seems appropriate: "God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it" (1 Corinthians 10:13). What is your motto for 2010?
Next up a recap of my Holiday gift exchange gift from Kayte (I feel so bad but I have not mailed your yet! I promise to do so this week!! I have just been beyond distracted)!
Today I am grateful for:
Improvements in my health!
A friend who has moved in with me while The Hubs is deployed! YAY AN the RB!! Welcome home!
Despite the holiday season, looking on the bright side of the negative, I lost 10 pounds!