I have been MIA this week.
My training seems to parallel life right now. I have officially given my resignation to my boss at work, the movers are coming in 19 days, I am running a marathon in 23 days, I am moving away from my friends and this place that that I love in 23 days…I am running 20 miles tomorrow….
And we received bad news concerning my dad’s cancer.
All I want to do is go home and spend time with my family.
I feel like I have lose ends flopping around everywhere and I can’t seem to tether them down. When I secure one then another flops around out of control.
When I was training for OKC my 20 mile run changed my life. It came at a time when things once again were completely out of my control. Completing that 20 mile run showed me that I was strong and tough and it gave me the mental strength to move forward. I know that running 20 miles tomorrow wont make my dad’s cancer go away and it wont solve the world’s problems…..But it is something I can do, something I can accomplish, something I can control and something to tell me that life is hard I can manage, I can survive.
Good luck on your race/run tomorrow. I hope it brings you a little bit of calm during this really busy time.
ReplyDeleteTake them all one step at a time..just like your 20miler! sending you dad healing prayers! and hoping things get secured down soon.
ReplyDeletePraying for your dad, praying for you to find some peace with everything! Go rock that 20 miler tomorrow :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck on your run tomorrow. We'll add your Dad to our prayers. I really wish I could get my long run in. I'm running out of time.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your dad this weekend! Sad that you are dealing with all this at once, but secretly happy that I may meet you one day soon! :) Hang in there!!!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry about your father. Best of luck on your marathon and move... and go beat down the 20-miler tomorrow!!! Can't wait for my first 20-miler in a few weeks, I'm hoping to have the same epiphany you describe.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry about everything you are going through. I'm equally sorry that I just recently found your blog and now you are moving away from our beautiful Pac NW. I so wish we had been able to meet up at a race at least once.
ReplyDeleteI know you will happy and successful wherever the Army decides to plop you down.
Just take things one life one step at a time. ((HUGS))
I'm really sorry to hear about your Dad. We'll be thinking about you! Good luck with your 20-miler!
ReplyDeleteOh dear! I am so sorry to hear about your dad! I hope that everything goes as well as it can go! I'll be praying for you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry all of this is being thrown at you at once. I will be praying for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteugh. That's a bunch of hard stuff, but your're right. Tomorrow will remind you of the stuff you are made of! Blessings...Eryn
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. Hope all ends up OK.
ReplyDeleteOh man. You have so much going on. I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. I hope the 20-miler helps a little to remind you of how strong you are, and at least in 23 days you'll have all your loose ends tied up. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteQuite a number of I hope you will find strength inside you to see you through this rough patch.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your dad.
I wish I could jump on a plane and come help you pack or something! I am praying that you will find faith in God and tap into the inner strength that I already know you have to get thru this phase of your life. If your dad is half as tough as you, he will fight back. I'm glad you have your training time to get away for a few hours and reflect on life. Hang in there girl!
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you during these very trying times. So sorry to hear about your dad. I hope that 20 miler is just what you need.
ReplyDeleteYou and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you conquered those 20 miles!
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the race this weekend.
ReplyDeleteWhen my mom was fighting cancer running was such a escape for me - therapy in a way. Will pray that the news for your dad turns positive - we know all too well how hard cancer can be on a family. Keep running. Hope your 20 is great!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear that you got bad news on your Dad. :(
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for writing this post. I've been in an eerily similar situation - cross-country move, leaving all friends and family for a city where we knew NO ONE, a new job, and marathon training amidst all of it.
ReplyDeleteTo top it off, the week I moved my best friend's mom was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer. She passed away four months later. A few weeks later, a dear friend gave birth to her first child. Being 2,000 miles away for those life-changing events took more strength than I had.
My views on running have changed, but not drastically. It's still a chore sometimes, but I remind myself to be grateful for my abilities, and to make the best of each situation I find myself in.
I hope you find the strength to make it through the remaining days of training, and wish you the best of luck with your marathon (and life in general!)
Sarah Soon-To-Be
Oh Amanda, I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. Good luck with everything.
ReplyDeleteHang in there.
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