I didn't really intend for my "break" to last a month...and honestly I'm not really sure my "break" is quite over....
I miss blogging and sharing my experiences with you all. As miserable and boring as they are. But the truth is right now don't feel like I can really share what I want, or what I need to share. You see, I have a story to tell. Not today but one day I'll tell you my story. And I know my story is not unfamiliar or even unique. And I'm betting a number of you would say you've
been there, done that and would have some wise words and I know all of you would have encouragement. And I'm open to hearing it. For now, though, I have to keep my story as my own.
All I can say is life has thrown me lemons, and I'd like to make some lemonade but instead I have a lot of rotting lemons lying around...
and they stink.
My running is strugging. I'm not injured or sick, thank goodness. I just lost the motivation, the time and the ability to conveniently go for a run....It's much of the same, no time, no place to run, but I'm determined to work out a routine that will be manageable. I'm not giving up on Big Sur, which is a short 27 days away. (
Insert mini GINORMOUS freak out here.) I may have to crawl but but I am going and I will toe the line. I wish it could be as epic and life-changing as
OKC full was for me, but I haven't put in the miles or the training.
I know this. I have been chasing the
HIGH I felt from OKC full in 2010 for the past two years. I have yet to find it. Maybe I am looking in the wrong place. That race was not normal. There was something magical about that race. And honestly, that is part of my story. I know why it was so magical, I know why it changed my life. And since then I have been searching, hoping to feel that again, to feel strong, empowered, accomplished, capable, and proud. Soon, though...I'm not giving up on that feeling.
So, here I am. 27 days away from my next 26.2 miles. How do you salvage a marathon training that has gone by the way-side in 27 days? There is no taper when there has been no training. I was reminded by
Mel-Tall Mom that it IS possible to finish a marathon with minmal training. Not ideal, but possible. She graciously came to run
Vegas 26.2 with me in 2010 with bare minimum training. She was a saint! She stuck by my side and we pushed and pulled each other along. After the fact was not pretty, but she did it. And she reminded me of that. So, with her strength and dedication in mind, I'll get through Big Sur. I'm just bummed that I am no as prepared as I should be. It is so much easier to enjoy the experience when you're confident in your training.
I'm not guaranteeing frequent, daily blog updates but I'll try....and I'll try to get my Tobacco Road 13.1 recap up soon....